Back in the neolithic 50’s I was taught that imitation was the sincerest form of flattery. Now, I’m not so sure. No, change that. Now I AM sure IT IS NOT. Imitation is not flattery at all. In fact I will go so far as to say mockery is a poor imitation of the original. So why is it we spend our lives trying to copy what someone else has already done? And then getting depressed because no-one is buying what we have to offer because it’s already BEEN done? Or living with the consequences of movements, habits, occupations, etc. that don’t suit us?
Put in terms of movement — remember that Feldenkrais guy — trying to imitate someone else doesn’t take into account your unique circumstances. It might actually cause discomfort and possibly harm. Imitation certainly doesn’t teach you anything about how you are put together and it definitely doesn’t give you options. And I’m all for options.
So what to do? Notice what happens as you head in the direction of doing what it is you want. Honor your quirks and play with possibilities. If you keep at it, my guess is soon you’ll be able to do what you set out to do.